18 posts from April 2008

Aih. I'm such a life saver wtf.

My little brother decided to IM-ed me, and asked me about his really lame essay. Like, study vs. co-curriculum. -_-
&& i bombarked so many points, plus all the unnecessary comments along with those points. :X

Which, make me miss essay-writing in highschool. I totally love love love it okay. Cause that's when i impress myself wtf. *slaps self* But really. I enjoy essay-writing, a lot. (x

Then right, my brother is currently handphone-hunting, and one of his choices is the phone Moot is using. So i IM-ed her. && dengan randomly, i saved her life, too. O__o

She was looking for a not-boring and not-common essay (essay right?) topic for social problems in Malaysia. && ah, im so amazed with my intelligence WTF i need to stop being so vain. It's peer pressure la (her essay topic la idiot, not the vain part) in case you wanna know. :X

Peer pressure IS a social problem right? It can be right? :S

Actually, it's something that i discussed with L and Sarah before lah. About how my brother got so influenced into getting a handphone, because of his friends and cousins. But who am i to say when i just mentioned in my previous post that i cannot leave without my handphone? =.=

Dah sah, it's a social problem in Malaysia. (x

It just feels good to be able to help others, but hello? Anyone willing to help me with my Stats Excel Ass(ignment)? I totally_inheart forgot whatever i learned in my Lab few weeks (months maybe?) ago. Sucks. T_T

My Business Communication presentation maybe? T__T

Ei FTW. Wednesday and Thursday holiday! And stupid Fridays is not taking me again! Labour day = double pay okay! T___T Hate you la Mr. Julius (my manager) Ei just kidding ok youre the best wtf. (i need to stop talking to myself)

But i didnt fight for it la, since i think i should spend some quality time with the boi. *pats own head*

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&& oh. Today went to work. Everything's fun and nice. I made this deal with my colleague - she'll teach me one tamil word every time i go work wtf.

Word of the day wtf. KADAVELEH! (spelling?) Hahhaa!
Actually i got this really often from Mel last time on MSN, but i didnt know how to pronounce it.

&& i've been using this word for the whole damn day wtf. What to do. Im annoying like that.
And i amazed them by telling them i know how to say i love you in tamil okay! *proud*

Oh oh oh. And Anba (the shift leader, and also the one who protected me from the girl T__T AND I SAW THE GIRL TODAY LEHHH! (ei yala she works in Fridays, too. Trainee) But she just smiled at me. I smiled back. So awkward T__T) wrote this really amazing quote. My expression when i saw this quote, was literally like O_O

There's Never a WRONG Time to do the RIGHT Thing.

Amazing. Thanks for sharing.

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OK. Got tagged by Moot. Some lame meme wtf. But enough to kill some stress before i start stressing on my Excel Ass(ignment).

5 things found in my bag:

1. My lipgloss-lipbalm-mirror-eyeliner bag
2. My QQbear purse wtf
3. My pencil case
4. My house keys
5. My dog name tag for work.
(why 5 things only leh?)

5 things found in my wallet:

1. Money
2. Cards: ATM, IC, MPH, Coffee Bean (with no points inside wtf), Student ID, Business Cards..
3. A gold-heart the bitch gave me.
4. Old notes of Rm5, Rm2, Rm1.
5. L's face

5 favourite things in my room:

1. Bedddd mmmmmmm
2. Leonidas
3. Booboo/Lowlow/Supramaniam
4. The wall wtf
5. Comfooorrter!

5 things I always wanted to do:

1. Pierce my belllyyy!
2. Walk in the rainn with the boi
3. Socialize more =/
4. [cant think of any-more]
5. [cant think of any-more]

5 things I'm currently into:

1. Assignment WTF NOO WTF Dreaming.
2. Playing games/listening to songs on my phone
3. Saying really mean/pointless/funny/sarcastic stuffs to my colleague :X
4. Being alone in college. Honestly. -_- Need to change this.
5. Reading other people's blogs.

List out the top 4 presents you wish for:

1. Tops/Skirts
2. Sony T2
3. Sony PSP
4. Love (:

The person who tagged you is:
Mootchelle M.H. Wong wtf (without the wtf la)

Your 5 impressions of him/her:

1. Happy go lucky
2. Talkative
3. Freedom wtf. Che Guevara ar you think wtf (sorry talking to self again)
4. Loud :X in a good way la wtf.
5. Creative

Most memorable thing he/she has done to you:
BBQ @ my house. Lantern Festivel. Trolley day out. -_-

If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
Tell L and let L murder her in her sleep wtf.

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
O__o
I've no idea O_o

The tag dies here. bye.

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Random Fact # 8023: When im doing my work/during exam, i keep drinking water. Provided there's a bottle/glass near me. (x

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Ei i realised there are so many words! OK la, post some photos.

Mom started blending a mixture of random veges for us to drink.

Fear Factor # 35: Celery (i hate this T_T) + Tomato + Apple

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Fear Factor # 97: Tomato + Carrot + Apple

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The MU T-shirt my boyfriend bought. That nearly cost my life. T__T

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That day:
Woke up. Grabbed the nearest T. Went 3K.

Julius (not the manager la stupid): OI what are you wearing lar?!
me: *turns around to show off the MU word* HEHEHHE

And he went on telling everyone.

So happened that.
Three of the coaches there are Chelsea fans.
So happened that.
That night was Chelsea vs. MU.

Talk about bad timing. -_-

Ben: You know. Usually if a guy wears it, I'll ask him to take it off. But you're a girl. I've no choice but to throw you into the swimming pool.
me: T____________________T I'll not wear it again T________T
Ben: HAHAHHAHAH OKAY.

=.=

LEONARDO! GEES THANKS.

Anyways. Chelsea won la so whatever k wtf. And im not a fan of anyone.

But gosh, everyone in Friday's (both staffs/managers and guests) was staring at the TV screen. And it doesn't help when there are 9 TVs in Fridays. You see people standing/sitting in the restaurant staring up at the TV.

There are actually random human beings coming in or peeping through the door just to look at the score.
Madness. And the face those MU fans got when Chelsea scored their 2 ball. HAHA




&& i cut my hair. :P

I didn't mentioned about this before right? On a random day, i randomly went to some random saloon and cut my random precious hair.

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SHORT OK!













































lol. :P

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 It's the angggllleee. Sot ar. Cut so short can heart attack and die.

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Ei dont tell me it looks the same ok. If its so keep it to yourself wtf. It costs me 35bucks to cut+wash so shaddap!
Own hard earn cold cash T_________T

OK ASS TIME.
BYE.

XOXO.

How i spent my one-week holidays.

First i left my handphone at home (seriously. i feel insecure and stupid and useless without my handphone WHAT HAVE I TURNED INTO?!).
Second i fcking left my HANDBAG in my aunt's house WTF I KNOW. Aihh.
Third, i forgot my red bangle/braclet. (one of the uniform standards la screw it)

&& i was freaking freaking mooody when i reached Fridays. Cause..
i) just woke up from sleep.
ii) i dont geddit! why am i so forgetful one leh?

&& things couldn't be worse. i had some miscommunication and misunderstanding with a girl. not really. i didn't have misunderstanding with the girl, but more to the company! a policy that everyone thought it works that way, turned out that it doesn't work that way! you geddit or not! nevermind. dont geddit then just stay that way.

aihh. then right, the mother made a big fuss out of it. and scolded my poor poor innocent colleague. i felt so bad for misleading the girl, i was planning to apologize to her after the mom stop blabbing at my poor colleague. then, that's when another two colleagues of mine, decided to be really friendly and nice and loving and whatnot, started squeezing my shoulder to comfort me!

you know how when you feel like crying or is crying, someone comes and comfort you, you feel like crying even more?

YES.

then my shift leader of the day, came over, and asked me what happened. i said "ask kenneth" but he kept asking me and TADAAAA.

You guessed it. I BROKE INTO TEARS! =.=

Aihhh. Why am i like this, kan?

So right, i also dunnoe isit destinied (wtf) or not, but when i broke down, that's when the (girl's) family decided to leave! and i cant be apologizing with my fuckface right. -_-
&& the shift leader of mine was being oh-so-lovely, he was blocking/protecting me from the family when they leave (i was behind him) while i sob like a baby. .____.

AIYO. So dramatic la okay. But meh, i also dunnoe why my tears are so easily squeezed out. But very embarrassing lor can! Like that also wanna cry. T___T

After cooling down and settling down wtf.

&& he turned his back on me, offering me his back to cry on. i just smack his butt and went off wtf ungrateful child i am.

AIHH. So they kept joking and laughing and comforting me *hamtaro eyes* They were really sweet and nice lahh.
Kept asking me if im alright, and blaming everything on others but me. T_T

&& i went to apologize to the poor innocent colleague (for kena bombark for nothing) and he was like, "nonono dont worry its not you come on lah they all aihh dont worry dont worry!" T____T

I felt so loved lah.

Doesn't it feel super good, when people are just so protective over you?

(:

So it sums up my bad day for Sunday. Which ends up not too bad. Full of love. (:

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&&&& today's first day of college, after the one week holiday. and my brain is rusted, and still rusty. T__T

BUT pfft! It started real good, because i went lunchy with my boyfriend! All sweet and mushy. *melts in love*

@ Pizza Hut ss15

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SALAD!

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OK NOW. Better start my research on my presentation! Need to work twice as hard to get good results. SIGH.

My results came out for Stats and Finance.
Finance was piece of shit.
But my Stats was great! ;D

But whatever. BYE.

STUDY STUDY!

XOXO.
<3

Aih.
I dunnoe what's wrong with my skin lately. As long as my face touched water, ie bathing, washing face. It gets red and itchy.

*sigh*

I thought it was the cleasner, so just now, i decided not to wash my face. And its still the same!!
&& my skin is getting back to the dry-and-skin-peels stage. It was like that once, so i could NOT live withOUT my moisterizer. Then there was once, it was miracly fine, and sometimes i laze, and didnt apply moisterizer.

-__________-

What's new from emily, kan?

I hate this lah. Sigh.

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On a really happier note. Very happy.

MY OH SO GREAT BABY.
FOUND.
PS. I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111

YAYYYYYAYAYYA. THAT DVD!!

OH GOSH I LOVE CECELIA AHERN, the one who wrote the book.
THAT BOOK IS SO BRILLIANT!

Aih, baby, PS, I LOVE YOU. WTF.
Thanks baby boi.
*MUAH*

Although it is said that the movie always suck if it comes from a book. But what the heck?!
Uhhhh wtf.
I literally turned insane, and begged L for the DVD ok wtf. Why i like that hor? But heh.
Gotta go catch it before my work.

YES. Fridays still want me. BYE.

Hello.

Very productive day.

Woke up at 11.30.
Bumped around.
House chores.
Watched Malaysian Dreamgirl. (its an online reality show. ei if you watched/watching, i freaking dislike the way Cindy walks lor, sooo weird oneeee!)
Watched You, Me & Dupree while eating baked fries nyumm.
Played games on my handphone. (EI WTF. I bought an 1GB memory card teehee damn a lot of games teehee orgasm okay!)
Ate dinner.
Played games.
Blogging.

Aihh. Seriously lor, Fridays very ungrateful one lor. People holiday plan nice nice, they decided not to go with my plan! They decided not to put me on schedule today! Because they've enough staffs! Cause there are 7 unknown Taylorians came to work! PAHHH.

When they desperately need staffs, im like their God. wtf. Now they just forget me! Ungrateful company wtf.

Aihh. So yah, no plans for today, therefore, bumped around.

Ohh anyways. The other day, after my depressing Econ Tech paper, i went for dinner @ KimGary with those people not worth mentioning names WTF. Aiyar, YapKeong & Bryant (if you remember those two who made me go college at night and screwed up our presentation one, yah those! Apparently, we're friends now WTF), Yenni, Pecky & Ryan.

Then we went to watch Forbidden Kingdom jeng jeng jeng.

Fk

ei fk stands for forbidden kingdom, not fuck ok what are you thinking tsk.

Aih, i read so many blogs, so many people talked about it what's so great about the movie la ya ala, if its not for that Bryan past tense (GEDDIT? Bryant! Like, Spent! GEDDIT OR NOT SHEESH) insisted pffft i wont watch lor. (actually its not like they (those blogs that i read) gave good review la, but why do you even bother watching wtf)

What westernized journey to the west wtf.
Stealing asians storyline wtf.

But anyways, it wasn't that great la honestly. And i hated the fact that out of a sudden, the whole damn world can speak English, when initially no one understands wtf the guai lou (mat salleh) said.

Ryan hates the fact that there's a guailou inside. And also the fact that they direct translate "two tigers cannot be in one mountain" from cantonese peribahasa (ei whatever you call it la okay)

With Ryan beside me, there's no way a movie is going to be NOT funny. So yeah, we made jokes throughout the movie, and still yawn. -_-

It has jokes here and there as usual from Jackie Chan, but meh. So-so only lor the movie. I didn't have any expectations before the movie. So yeah.

But the girl is so so pretty! :D

Pretty girl

Random Chapter 5.3:

The Love of My Life.

Name: Thum Ruo Ning, Colleen

Birth date: 29th November 198X (protect identity wtf)

IC: 8X1129-XX-XXXX (protect identity)

Aih. Why am i so wuliao.

But yeah, i started calling Colleen the love of my life because...

*koreks memory from Brain Drive (B:)*

Colleen 21.04.08

It started off with:

One day, i found out that she hated garlic, which is like heaven to me wtf. (not the raw one la wtf) (garlic rice garlic bread garlic gravvy DAMN NICE RIGHT) So, i ask for a break up, cause i cannot take it! How can someone not share the same interest as me?! (ei yala, i just assume that we're together and ask for a break up. i'm always like that wtf)

Colleen 21.04.08 (2)

But we promised to remain as good friends. So we continued talking, and moved on with our lives without each other.

Then suddenly! OMG! After 2 minutes!

I found out that i cannot live without her!

And i need any reason on earth to be with her again!

And because we still share other same interests! (i cant remember what wtf)

And and i decided to propose to her again. And i told her my love for her is as deep as the sea, and as high as the mountain aihhh and i can never never live without her.

"Please please love, youre the love of my life. Please dont ever ever ask for a break up agian. I'm so so so sorry love".

"Yes love."

We live happily ever after.

The end.

WTFFF.

Sorry lah, we are wuliao like that we are damn wuliao like that.

&& we finally met up, again! Wheeeee.

This marks the 3rd time in our lives, meeting each other, after knowing each other for approximately four years!

Ei love, time flies so fast lah wtf. Aihh, i watched you grow up. Time really really flies. *touches moustache*

WTF.

Colleen 21.04.08 (3)

Surprisingly, we were less shy compared that to the first and second meet up. Yay wtf.

HAHA.

The first time we met up, it was with Michelle back then at the end of 2005. We kept telling each other to laugh whenever there's any silent moments. && we really did that. -_-"

THAT was Colleen's first time coming to Pyramid ok can you believe it.

And she spent us Genki Sushi why were we so shameless ar Michelle WTF.

&& aihh we took sticker photos, and Colleen's bag nearly got stolen.

Second meet up was ridiculously stupid. -_-

We met up in OneU. That's when Colleen met L too. (wtf love, you met my other half before wtf)

&& it was so embarassing. Colleen brought another friend, and three of us were so freaking silent. All we say to each other were, "ei where you" "hii" "bye" wtf.

But she sent me home lah *hamtaro eyes* And i fed her Pringles so romantic hor wtf.

Seriously, it was stupid lah. -_-

Like we met up just to exchange goods. -_- (we exchanged presents, birthday presents i think)

Third meet up is the most successful one lah so far!

So yay love! Love has brought us closer! wtf -.-

Why am i so ridiculously ridiculous?!

But love, i still love you.

Ei cannot believe i dedicated post # Eighty Nine for you lehh WTF.

Be grateful. AND DONT BE LATE NEXT TIME WTF.

p/s: YAA SHE WAS LATE THE LAST TIME I MET HER, AND SHE WAS LATE TODAY TOO WTF. WERE YOU LATE ON THE FIRST MEET UP AR WTF.

pp/s: it's okay i still love you.

ppp/s; ei dont tell the boifriend okay. wtf. he got no internet connection he cannot read wtf.

pppp/s; ei no lah, i confessed my sins to him myself WTF. His response:

L: you are so sick. please dont really fall in love with her. please dont come to me one day and tell me youre a freaking lesbian.

me: *grins* is bisexual acceptable?

L: NO!

HEHE. Im so cute lah WTF.

Love you lah baby. *muahs*

Love you too, love. *giggles* wtf.

ppppp(how many p already?)/s: Stupid Colleen paid for the bill AGAIN. We dine in BBQ Plaza. Ei this time it was fine lah. I was damn full lor unlike the last time i went. I forgot my family members are monsters wtf. SO right back to the topic right, i go buy 2 bucks mineral water (ei i like the bottle okay wtf) and i purposely used RM50 to get change to pay her back AND SHE REFUSED TO TAKE IT. Dah lah unemployed WTF. Wanna act like she print money wtf. So im going to bank in the moeny into her bank account WTF.

THATS IT BYEE.

XOXO.

End of random chapter 5.6. ei wtf wrong number. I meant 5.3

HERROW!

;D ;D

Another paper downnn.

Assignment downnnn!

No more rants on Rise of China!

BYE CHINA! wtf.

Today's paper (Statistics) was surprisingly fine. Thank goodness for the few-hours-straight-last-minute-study!

Was so panick in the morning okay, i realised i forgot everything the lecturer taught. T__T

&& stupid Ryan aint helping, by calling me a "lifeless girl" wtf. Things i do for good results okay i dont care about you oKAYjin WTF HAHAHAHHAHA.

Last paper tomorrow, my Economic Techniques. T_T I seriously know nuts about it, because i was too busy layan-ing other subjects. *sigh*

I actually thought of starting my Econ Tech straight away after i return from the college, but then, my dad de-motivated me, by saying, "tomorrow's paper what time? go back home, take a nap, then start practicing."

THAT TAKE A NAP made my eyes shine wtf.

A professional procrastinator takes every single possible excuse to procrastinate. So there. It's 7.06PM and im here, online. And i obviously didn't take my dad's advice that seriously, because now, i feel like sleeping WHEN I COULD HAVE DID THAT TWO HOURS AGO AND WAKE UP AND DO MY ECON TECH RIGHT NOW! T_______T

Aih, once a procrastinator, forever a procrastinator.

&& oi, tomorrow got lecture somemore wtf. Meaning less time to study lor sigh.

And why i go tell my dad i got class tomorrow. Cannot skip already lor. My intelligence amazes me at times.

&& i hate the fact that Mr. Econ Tech is having a class tomorrow, a normal class, not revision class, right before the exam. He could've just cancel it!

&&& the fact that his classes are really important and useful, makes it even harder for me to decide.

-_-

Hate you lah Mr. Econ Tech.

Oklaaah. I'll decide to nap or not.

BYE.

p/s; a cheerful post, instantly turned into a depressed one. -.-

XOXO.

Ei hello. Very busy la now. Yet i've the freaking time to blog. *hamtaro eyes

But then right. Aih, it's the 16th have to sacrifice what to do wtf.

(Yah if the boyfriend is here now, he'll whack kau my head and then push my head towards my Stats textbook.)

But meh, i've to complete my Rise of China first, because i just realised i won't have time tomorrow as i need to prepare for my Econ Techniques exam right after my 3-4PM exam. BECAUSE I HAVENT START PRACTICING AT ALL.

Please tell me again why i procrastinated like mad yesterday?

T______________________T

Dodampae Gemagae Leonardo Dicaprio!

Why you didn't stop me from procrastinating?!

Why you didn't stop me from taking a two-hour nap?!

T______T

Why i like to blame you?!

T______T

But anyhows, thanks for temaning me the whole day procrastinating today.

Although you spent your time in front of my pc, and i spent my time sleeping wtf.

And coming over to gimme kisses when im asleep (and not waking me up to do my work wtf).

And keeping quiet after i fucking emo you for no reason (actually i emo my statistics wtf)

And then gimme a massage massage to destress me.

Thank you babbyyyyy. For all the wonderful times.

The times (actually all the time) when i suddenly have cravings and freaking make noise, demanding you to bring me all over.

And the cuddling, kissing, hugging, and screaming each other's heads off whenever we disagree on something.

Why i like to say we "scream our heads off" all the time, when half the time i just keep quiet and emo, and wait for you to say, "okaylaaa let you win laaaa aiyor wtf emo people"?

Heh. Thanks lah, baby boi.

XOXO

<3 + 14.

p/s; it's been quite some time since we spend the whole day together. miss it a lot. miss you even more. *muah muah*

pp/s; freaking adapter not working cannot upload picture! See, even the adapter wants me to study/do assignment. OKBYE

pp/s; ei wtf. i think my nose is falling. i keep rubbing it and it hurts, and i feel like its moving out of place omggg im michael jackson without the plastic surgery. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT?! because i honestly do not know. OKla whatever lah. BYEEE.

Heeello.

One paper down, 2 more to go, && 1 assignment. T__T

Anyways, heard about the KL Freeze in Unison?
Basically, out of a sudden, everyone stops moving. Read it on the newspaper today. They did this on Sunday @ Pavillion. Check out the vids.

KL Freeze.

More cooler ones.

London Freeze.

(there's this guy froze with his handphone in the air! damn kool ok)

Paris Freeze.

OMG. If you dont have the time (to watch all the above), watch this! It's freaking gooooooooooodd! Great! Excellent! Bravo! wtf.

Frozen Grand Central

But thumbs up lah. Just dont cheer okay wtf.
Then the people might think they can be like Hiro in Heroes!
Hehehhe.

Anyways, gotta surf the net a little more, and go continue my assignment. :D

Loves for all.
More to the boyfriend.
And more to the love of my life.
And more to the bitch.

They are all three different person wtf.
More on the love of my life later. *shy wtf.
DONT TELL MY BOYFRIEND K.

XOXO.

Just for memory purposes lar.

Thursday: Some random italian restaurant in ss15

- the soup and garlic bread were fantasticly yummy! it was such a good foreplay.

- when the chicken chop came (only chicken and fries) it was fine. intercourse coming.

- when i try to cut the chicken.. -_- it felt like it only has fats. and it wasnt nice to eat either. a major potong-stim.

- the one scoop of ice-cream was patheticly small. didnt manage to achieve orgasm.

WTF. cant believe i just said all those. to describe food. *slaps self*

Friday: Little Taiwan @ ss15.

- actually quite pricey lor. but they have set lunch! hail whoever came out with that. :X

- oredered some beef noodle, and the beef looks like brain. but it was alright.

- the two drinks available in the set lunch were.. jasmine tea and red bubble tea. according to my brother and i, jasmine tea = indian-flavored tea WTF.

- atmosphere was fine, upstairs looks like a storeroom wtf.

- and they asked ryan one thousand time what he ordered.

- and they did not void ryan's service tax. i mean, like, hello? he pay 10% service tax to be asked one thousand time what he ordered?!

- over all it was fine. they've this really cool dish called the "coffin". it's basically just bread and something creamy inside. and i really wanted to try their dessert. >_<

- oh, ryan and i think that they've trouble differentiating between taiwan and korean. because they serve with kimchi, and they play korean song - its called little TAIWAN. not little Kowan or Tairean wtf. or did they mean little taiwan, big korea wtf. okay enough.

Finance exam tomorrow at 8 in the morning.

Study please liwen. >_<

Surprise surprise. I didn't blog for few days!

Because you know what!

Internet was down!

And guess what!

More excuses for not doing my rise of china!

Which is due on the 18th!

But it's still considered a last minute work!

Because as you know!

I've three papers next week!

And im still doing my Finance!

Really slowly!

Like watching tv, read one line from the textbook, like eat peanuts, read another line, like eat eggtart, read another line, like sms the boi, and read another line!!111

You get the idea!

Ok, this is getting annoying!

But i dont care!

*sigh*

Please, i want distinction okay. T___T

But i know im just not working hard enough. *sigh*

Oh shit, the redspot books that i borrowed from the library need to be returned by tomorrow 9 in the morning!

Aihhh.

But i sure do look intelligent reading the two books on China in 3k for the past 2 days.

*giggles*

OKLA enough lah i go study my finance lah.

But then, There's this show on TV that's really funny to watch!

Aihhhh.

Okla whatever.

18th April, my first independence of the year 2008 wtf.

XOXO.

p/s; ei wtf. i eat a lot lately okay. im gaining tummy. T__T i keep feeling hungry this is stupid i dowan to be fat. T___T